Outnumbered, Outgunned

About You often

I think about you often. Your out there, doing something vastly differant than me, living your life on differant terms. I feel like an outlaw in a wild western town. Taking the things I need, when I need them from time to time. Not really paying attention all that hard to what is going on around me. Just working on the things I need.

Its been a while since I felt something like you. Actually I dont know that I have ever felt anything like you, or since you. I feel that inspiration so infrequently now. The power that we felt, the intensity of our youth, the fighting power of a city that we loved, a life we created. God knows how we did it.

I remember being at my house, going to the Kane house, walking down to Downer. Stopping at that Ice Cream joint, going and sitting in the back, at the stupid table behind the door, eating for some reason other than hunger.

What did we do with our evening? We did not have a tv. What the hell did we do with our time back then?

We sat at the union, studied, and I spent four years watching you study. Did you know that I dont think I studied once in high school. No wait, I know for a fact I did not study. The only time I thought about studying or any of that, was when you were my lab partner in Adv Bio. Dave Webber right there. Jay Freels. Two women. Brad Pietz. Matt Rahn. Sean Palecek sitting there, like buddha. Knowing more than all of us. My guilt at walking away from him in 7th grade. What did I walk into...expulsion...sports. A wasted 34 years.

What did we do in college? So we lived in the dorms...for one semester...you lived on that street with a curve. That february, after we came back boy friend and girlfriend, after spending all our xmas together...my waering that amazing UWM letter jacket.

Sleeping in that bed, was it a bed. it was a sleeping mat on a piece of plywood. Taking the nude photos of us.

I dont know where we came from, or where we ended up.

Women's reproductive health. Media Access.

I learned that significance from you. I turned to something else during that time.

How did the world not have the same experience? How did the world grow in to the E! Channell...and blind Melon fans. Reaading online newspapers on line, and not getting anything delivered. Nothing.

I wish we knew each other now. I bet we have a lot to offer.

Tuesday I am going to Milwaukee with david lee roth, and brandon flowers to see my favorite live band of all time...social distortion. I really like the sound of the guitars.

I dont know why.

Posted by Radiofree at September 19, 2005 01:04 AM | TrackBack