Outnumbered, Outgunned

Imminent Surgery

So I am 34, and really have not been to the doctor in a while. I think that this year will be the year of returning to the doctor.

I went to the ear nose and throat guy. Turns our that my palatte is 80% too big...or blocking my airway. So I have a sleep test coming up in a few days...then lazer surgery.

I wonder how my voice will change.

I am home tonight, and I am tired. I have sort of let myself go to this point where there is nothing but the rigid discipline needed to return to what I wanted to be years ago. I completely dont know how the man I remember at UWM became the man I am now. Just how long has this depression lasted. A decade? What is the key to finding some joy in this?

When I see Natas Kaupas, it is inspiring, and humilitating. He got me thinking about the politics of obesity. And while it is a horrible idea, in the coffee house liberal sense...its a lot of fin to consider that sloth leads to obesity in some cases. And this sloth is in fact something that is a bad thing. On every level.

Dissillusionment.

The other day I spoke to Wendy for a long time. God I wish I was a man that she could be interested in.

Posted by Radiofree at September 24, 2005 12:06 AM | TrackBack