Outnumbered, Outgunned

Come By After

So I came home from work yesterday, and I laid straight away on the couch. I brushed my teeth, and took my pants off, and pulled the synthetic blanket up over me. And I was out. Depressed, just blackness. Tired of the struggle.

Today at work my bosses(I have two now) and I sat down with the Cheif Financial Officer. And it pretty much came down to this...if I dont get the money in its entirity for next year, its over. So come by after July 1, 2006. See where I am.

I dont get the support needed from the institution. I have taken on this task, and simply it is impossible. I am charged with creating programming, maintaining a relationship with the FCC, keeping us compliant...and now I am in charge of fundraising.

I tend to think that I am going to be spending the next few weeks thinking about the whole resume thing. Mainly I am thinking about returning to school. I look at the people around me, and the simple fact is that the only thing that stands between them and I is discipline. I simply did not have it in college. I was too scared.

I know I am smarter than most. But I dont work at it at all. I just have found that I lost that sense of meaning.

It is my moms birthday on wednesday.

I have decided that I need to reevaluate the whole celebrity name thing. I just have gotten some feedback that it is confusing. I dont know if it is confusing, or my blogging style just sucks ass.

Tonight everything is bad.

Come see me after

Posted by Radiofree at September 27, 2005 05:01 AM | TrackBack